Stubborn

So I don't think stubborn is quite the word I was looking for, but that's the best I could think of.

A couple of days ago I was thinking about the way I make decisions. I don't. Well at least I don't usually remember making them (I'm talking about the big ones). The summer I was eight when I was digging in the back yard (we did that a lot) I found a series of old broken and/or burnt items in the ground. Some of the most exciting artifacts were a pocket watch, a tube of toothpaste and what appear to be clay marbles. My parents compared it to Archaeology which I subsequently became interested in. When I registered for college I selected Anthropology (which Archaeology is a subset of) even though I wasn't sure if that's what I really wanted. I liked so many subjects I didn't know which one to choose, but I still registered for one Anthropology. I'm halfway through my Junior year and my major is still the same.

My mission is even simpler. I've always wanted to go on an LDS mission. And when I say "always" I mean I can't remember a time when I didn't want to go. When I was 21 (the minimum age requirement for girls) I went, a month after my birthday.

Another example: When I was little my mom wanted me to learn how to play the piano. I never did, I took lessons but it never went well. I had decided I didn't want to and so I didn't. This is why I say I'm stubborn. Once I make a decision I usually follow through. Which might not always be the best thing. Hence, my next point.

Recently people have been asking me about whether I want to go to Graduate School. I have nothing against going, but I haven't really thought about it either. Does that mean I won't? I can't? or just that perhaps it will be a different kind of decision process.