I realized something about myself this week. And I can't decide how I feel about it. I realized that my brand of perfectionist relates to homework. This means my homework rules my life and I feel that I have to completely do every bit of homework, every reading assignment, every piece of busy work. I do well in school, but sometimes I wonder if it is all completely necessary. It's odd really though I've never been a grade eater, I don't care if I get perfect grades, 4.0's, whatever. To me I think it has more to do with pleasing the teacher, I like people to think highly of me (I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in that feeling). But it really isn't all about being a people pleaser either, it's just I feel like a slacker when I don't do everything that is asked of me. And it's not necessary. But that's how I am. I don't really know how to change, and yet I'm not sure I want to either. It's good to be able to be proud of your work.... but when it takes up your whole life it's kind of annoying too.
Before I started thinking about this I hadn't really thought I was a perfectionist. I guess there is room for everyone in that happy home. Just like everyone is creative or patient in different things. Maybe everyone is a perfectionist in some degree. What kind are you? and do you mind?
I'm this type of perfectionist too.
ReplyDeleteI used to be a perfectionist about sewing and then I started sewing for my kids and I realized it doesn't matter that much. It was a relief to relax my personal requirements.
Out of curiosity... how does this form of perfection play out after you are done with school?
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