Often on my hikes by myself I will start out on the same trail until I look up and see something and say to myself "I'm going to go to that outcrop." And then I do. When I get there I hike some more until I decide on a new objective and go there.
When I'm on the phone I often go for walks and it is kind of a similar process. I walk straight until I decide I want a change and then at an intersection I will turn and walk straight for another stretch.
On both the mountain and the neighborhood jaunts I mostly go up or out from my initial spot until I decide that I want to turn around and then I wander back in the same fashion.
The wandering isn't exactly random but it certainly isn't planned out before hand with a specific destination in mind.
I was talking to a friend about wandering and how peaceful it is... how it provides a change in pace.
It made me wonder if I'm wandering through life, and I think I am. I think I have a tendency to just go where life takes me, go with the flow, until I see some specific (but short term-ish) destination and then I make for it (a mission, BS, MS) and then I wander some more until I catch sight of another destination that looks intriguing and go for it.
I told someone once that I didn't really know what I wanted and he was skeptical. "And yet you have a Masters," he said. I kind of wanted to respond, "I think that was an accident."
To be fair, it wasn't an accident but it was more of a short term plan rather then a life goal.
And just like my wanders are always up and out (well until I have to turn around) I think my life is pointed in a higher faster direction.
I know this wandering type of life might drive some people insane, or just be utterly unfathomable but I think it works for me. When you do things this way you never know if you'll find mountain goats or bones, new friendships or fascinating facts.
This is so completely you! Glad you figured that out.
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