At get to know you activities (which I seem to constantly be a part of) one of the typical things is to go around in a person and say your name and one thing that is "interesting about you." Then I try to desperately think of something that is random but not actually that helpful in getting to know me... As in I don't like to say things that are typically seen as cool. For example on a few different occasions I've said "my hair is brown", "I like paperclips", or "I like to dig in the dirt". Random but not actually helpful.
The other day someone suggested I apply to Yale. I said "Why in the world would I want to go there?"
My friend said "because then people would think you're awesome."
"Exactly why would I want to go there?"
And she said, "because you are awesome."
I do think I'm interesting and kind of cool but I hate it when people assume I am for the wrong reasons. Maybe that is why I don't like it when people find out I'm a Master's student and they start gushing about how smart I am.... or I'm studying paleontology (dinosaurs) so suddenly I'm cooler than the person studying finance... ok so I don't mind that when it's my nephews that think I'm cool but yeah.
So basically I realized that I would rather tell acquaintances things that make me seem weird rather then cool.... perhaps it is a form of self defense. Tell them something weird so they run away instead of letting them get to know me and then having them run away.
Sometimes I think I am pretty confident and then I figure things like that out about myself and I think, maybe I'm not as confident as I thought.
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